Hello to one and all. It has been far, far too long since I last wrote on here. I hope you can forgive me as this period is exceptionally busy for everyone. I wish you all a very happy Christmas and hope that you all have a prosperous new year. I have had a wonderful Christmas surrounded by my family.
One of the many amazing presents that I received this year was a brand spanking new camera. This means that my youtube channel will be getting many new and better quality updates. I am very excited to use it for that purpose. Everyone was exceptionally generous, and as expected I have eaten far too much but regret absolutely nothing. This is the time of excess and I am happily obliging to that. There are just so many yummy things around to scoff on at this time of year. I am an absolute sucker for chocolate oranges and I always get a couple for Christmas, which I have since demolished. And then there is the matter of Christmas lunch - is it just me or is that meal just the absolute best meal of the entire year? Needless to say, I am a huge Christmas lover.
Unfortunately, despite having an incredible Christmas, my depression has for some reason been increasingly hard to handle. I am new medication (again) that is making me forever exhausted. Sadly, I have been crying myself to sleep as I do not let my mood show, especially during such a happy time. However, today I have just let it all out. I haven't left the house and I've had a few naps. It is so so frustrating I can't even begin to explain. I have absolutely nothing to be down about and yet that is the only emotion that I am feeling as of late. I am also worrying and dreading going back to university, I get a lot worse when I am there. I will just have to grin and bare it. On a plus, however, I am having less anxiety attacks at the moment so I think that my new meds might be helping with that finally. It seems to me that all the medications that I have tried either helps with my depression or my anxiety, but never both at the same time, which is beyond annoying. But there you go, hopefully it will all sort itself out.
I am going to try finish on a positive as I don't want people going away from this post feeling negative. I have planned out my evening in such a way that I hope will pull me out of this little ditch that I am in. It begins with a cocktail, which I am currently half way through, then tea, and then a long and relaxing lush bath. Hopefully by calming myself down by having a bath I will get a good nights sleep and that will hopefully boost my mood.
I hope to be in touch again very shortly. I really looking forward to adding to my youtube channel, so watch this space.