Just when I didn't think that things could get much worse, they inevitably did. As one of the people I really relied on is no longer there for me I started to panic a lot. It's a feeling that I would compare to abandonment. That might sound massively overdramatic but I don't know how else to express my feelings. Now I am not admitting this to all of you for attention, as that is not something that I am wanting. I say this as a way of explaining why I have been particularly negative lately. It is exceptionally hard to let go of something that you clung to.
However, this has taught me so very much about myself and that I am stronger than I give myself credit for. No one deserves to be made to feel less than you are and it's time I stood up for myself.
Now whilst I have been struggling with all of this I cannot begin to tell you how you have all helped me. For some reason, I have received many messages from some of my readers. Whilst some people have let me down so much, you all have helped me. Many of you I have never met, and it is you that I am now relying on. Your words are so kind, and I am so happy that you feel you can trust me and have an open conversation with me. Everyone of you have such an amazing amount of worth to me, even if you don't think you do, I'm telling you that you are important to me. You are all inspirational, and I thank you for helping me.