Unfortunately everyone faces some horrible times in their lives and have to make some decisions that they never wanted to make. From what I've learnt, all I can say is don't draw it out for longer than it needs. It is so easy to love memories and cling on to them. But ultimately when you aren't happy, the world is a very dark and sad place. We need to surround ourselves with people who will make things a lot better. Some decisions are meant to challenge you, it shows your personal limits and what is important to you. When what is important to you is no longer important to someone else then you need to review it all. I have recently been given more than enough time to reflect on a lot of things. These last few weeks have been absolute hell for me and I believe that I don't deserve to feel like this anymore. 2015 is a new year, and this is the year I am going to get better. I promise that to every single one of you reading this. No matter what it takes, no matter how selfish I have to be, I will get better. No one is going to hold me back anymore, I need to find the strength within me a realise certain things aren't worth the pain anymore.